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there's context for this. if you don't know what it's about, search for jorge steven lopez mercado.

i've been struggling to understand this. "this" the crime, i mean. "this" the event of what happened and why it happened and "this" the world where such happenings do.

it makes me literally sick when i think about it. i get the urge to retch. and then i get scared because i'm not able to understand. it's, um, confusing. and unpleasant. blah blah blah.

i volunteered at the vigil last night. the vigil was beautiful and moving. and draining. and i still don't understand. but i am reminded of something forgotten at one's own peril: we are strong.

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